just upon a smile.

i think the hardest part is going to be when the room is dark, and i'm only listening to the sound of my breathing. when i roll over to fit my hand perfectly into the small of his back and pull him closer to me.

he won't be there anymore.

when i wake up with fright, drenched in what i can only describe as sweat, i'm going to have to calm myself down.

i'm a big girl, i can do this.

but you don't know how terrifying the night can be without a boy to cradle you ... without the sound of anyone else's heartbeat ... without the assurance that when morning comes, you'll be allright.